*Breathes breath of Life*
Well first I must apologize for having just suddenly vanished. A lot of things have happened most of them no so fortunate at all, but I’m alive. I’ve done some writing so I have things to show, but I just haven’t been around here much. 1000 Deviations to check, a couple hundred journals and no comments
Oh there are polls to, I’ll be getting around to them as son as possible but it may take awhile….. a long while.
Well let’s see what has happened?
Hmm well first the whole hurricane took the electricity with it so yeah, after it came back well I don’t know I just felt a little lazy, been busy trying to work my way into a school to study but something went horribly wrong so looks like I have to try for the January term. I really wish I’d just got in right away and gotten it all over with but ah well. I really don’t mind that I have to wait and all that I am willing do what ever is needed to get that back on track, the only thing that worries me is the consequences of reaching later. I don’t know I should hope/pray for the best but trouble is I don’t know what to hope and pray for, lol have you ever had a point where one part of you is being selfish and the other part knows the right but you want to be selfish? It’s a horrible internal battle. So I decided to try not to thing about it and thing about what is important like all the work and writing I have to do
Erm thieves tried to kick in my door the other day. About 2-3am no one in the house had gone to bed, all the dogs started making a lot of noise, and then before we knew it we heard banging on the back door. Heard the guys shouting for us to open the door. Lol my first thought was “yeah, riiight” I almost shouted shut up idiot because I don’t know it seemed incredibly stupid XD. But that didn’t mean they were weak <.< it was about four of them, brother saw em outside through the window. The door almost came off…. Well actually it came off the hinges, I had to hold the door up while they kept trying to kick it in, dented the door pretty badly I suppose. It was a experience though. My mother was scared, my brother frustrated, the way he was pacing with the baseball bat and watching the door I knew he wanted to go pummel the guys and me, well I’ve always trained myself to be completely calm during situations like that and I guess it paid off. My legs were going numb from pressing against the door but I was completely calm the whole time and handing out instructions lol. Had my mother heat the iron <.< put some water on the stove to boil and some oil to. Burn the bastids you know <.< and had my bro switch off all the lights. We know the house so we get advantage
But shockingly enough I held them off, and they stopped after a bit and I kinda nailed the door into the frame. We can’t use the door now though, the locks are no use and we could only just nail the hinges back, so I nailed some boards onto it and some other things so the door now cannot be opened. Yeah we called the police; guys vanished as soon as they showed up no big surprise there, uncle that lived near by drove down. But hey we made it.
I feel off today, because today I was supposed to be on a flight and going to the US but instead no so I feel a little defeated :/. But I’m down not out
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There is so much more to say but I can’t think of any right now, there were things I wanted to be able to say but I can’t say them now ._. But hopefully I will soon >.<
But when life kicks you down shake your fist at it get up and don’t try to kick it back you’ll hurt yourself
instead work on making your dreams come true. Don’t kick yourself life does it for you. Don’t punish yourself that is already taken care of instead work for what you want and things will work out sooner or later, just know if you can’t get a helicopter to the top of the hill then start climbing
Well thank you all for taking your time to read this and I’ll get to work on those deviations and journals and polls lol. *sigh* going out to work on something deathly important today wish me luck I will need every ounce possible.
~Love ya’ll
~Peace out!
I wrote that over a month ago before my internet killed itself again ~.~
I have a tendency to pre-type journal entries in word before posting it and even though this is weeks old I’m keeping it and adding more you al deserve a nice long journal :]
Well let’s see how my mood has been since then. Hmm bah still sad and feeling alone :/. I’m trying to get a job… no rather I got one but I don’t start till in November. About mid November e.e.
I think I have a traumatizing personality.. not to other people… I think but to electronics because it all seems to die around me ~.~ unless I fix it then leave then it is happy. Almost like I came by to threaten it to work then leave. Blah blah blah anyway this lil entry will be like a musical I’ll be breaking out into song and dance every now and then too bad you can’t see the dance.
…and I guess that’s why they call it the blues, time on my hands could be time spent with you, laughing like children…
Yup been using my music for comfort but I have bad taste because most the songs are sad soundtracks that fit the way my life is right now lol. Oh and a cookie to all who guess all songs mentioned in this journal. In other words I shall be giving no one any cookies yay more for me
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Oceans apart day after day and I slowly go insane. I hear your voice on the line, but it doesn’t stop the pain. If I see you next to never, how can we say forever? Wherever you go, whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you, whatever it takes or how my heart breaks I will be right here waiting for you.
Oh that one is a classic I love that one. Bwee-hee-hee.
I’ve been doing a lot A LOT of writing lately and I will post them all, a lot have guest star characters but I won’t post them all at once
So today I decided as a treat you get two
If you’re feeling dead I’ll be your reanimator, superior existence with no one to control you and you could always do what you like.
Hahaha I know who should get that one and if she doesn’t I’ma whack her.
I’ve been stumbling into a lot of old friends lately, some coming in from abroad to visit home and some just back in town. It’s good seeing them again but of course they aren’t around much, figures I’d have all the friends that go far away after school leaving poor old me all alone eh?
If I ever needed you I need you now, nothing in my life I’ve been more sure of
Another classic 1988 the year I turned one I love this too and you will never get it right
Hmm I’m feeling guilty let me give you a easy one.
Here we go for the hundredth time, hand grenade pins in every line, throw em up and let something shine.
There and if someone else doesn’t get this I’ll beat here hahaha
…. Ok I’m sorry I feel like typing song quotes ;]
With hands held high into the sky so blue the ocean opens up to swallow you
Haha I’m having fun are you? Come on it’s a game play with me D:
Hey and can you tell me what kinda creepy stalker song this is? I mean come on.
If I was invisible then I would just watch you in your room.
I mean come on buddy back the heck off already that is going too far there is a line!
I like music it makes me feel good, even if it is sad and depressing and reminds me of sad chapters of my life.
When you feel all alone and the whole world has turned it’s back on you… Then there is hope
There has always been heartache and pain, but when it’s over you’ll breath again.
Oh, you guys will never ever get this one, muahahaha only one person has the potential to get it but I don’t think she will
For you I will sacrifice, for all my life you and me will be together
Another one that will be hard
Hurry up and come back, was the last thing she said to her son, the day his life was taken. She didn’t know he wouldn’t come back. He died from the bullet of a gun, now her little boy is gone and she said, help me father help me, then she looked up to the sky and she heard a voice reply. When you cry I cry, I cry along with you.
No it’s not a gospel song
One more impossible one. That again one someone should know because she said she liked it.
How you gonna live for the needle, you know it will eventually kill you, do you really wanna see the eyes of your baby staring down on you. Tell me do you know what you’ve become living on the intoxicated rum. This morning black eyes will greet you, you say you’re sorry but tonight it continues. Everytime I try, I try not to give a crap, Everytime I try, I’m broken up inside, and I can’t hide the sickening truth inside, I’m guilty by design.
Are you enjoying this as much as I am? :]
Sometimes when she looks up it seems as if she is by herself. The devil whispers in my ear I try my best to reach her world.
I spent three years trying to find this song D: but I found it and downloading it from who ever had it took me like 3 days man XD only one source I was happy :]
Feh I feel a classic coming on.
I don’t know what we’re afraid of, nothing would change if we made love, so I’ll be your friend and I’ll be your lover, cause I know in our hearts we agree, we don’t have to be one or the other. We could be both to each other.
Heard it on family guy good luck
My TV magically picked up Cartoon Network even though I don’t have cable. Blood+ and Death note look cool
I’ve seen most the others and why the flip is Bobobobobobo or whatever it is allowed to be on TV DX
For the fact of the matter the things on Adultswim rot minds man XD
when I dream about you, that’s when everything’s alright you’re in my arms here next to me, forever.
Someone said shut up with the love songs and depressing songs you want angry songs?
I got em all >D
How can we still succeed taking what we don’t need, spreading lies alibis!!
The ! are there to show the anger <.< …..!!!!! DX
Lol I’m having too much fun and this means that I am in dire need of help :] I should go get a life yes? No those are expensive and besides I have one see I’m breathing yes? Lol not my fault all my friends are gone and it’s hard to make new ones because I don’t share their interest at all. I’ev had many many many friends but few real friends for the simple fact that many people just have no interest in what I do, I’ve always been different. But they try anyway, I have no idea why.
I am vindicated, I am selfish, I am wrong, I am right, I swear I’m right, swear I knew it all along, and I am flawed but I am cleaning up so well, I am seeing in me now all the things you swore you saw yourself.
This song sort of has deep meaning with me. Again thank you, you know who you are.
I’ve been playing a lot of tactic games haha exercising my brain you know. Forward thinking planning and execution the works it’s fun. Play “Tactics Ogre: Knights of Lodis” now. If you want
The winner takes all, it’s the thrill of one more kill, the last one to fall, who’ll never sacrifice their will. I’ll never look back on the wind closing in, the only intent with the wings of the wind oh the fate will begin. And it’s sweet, sweet victory and it’s ours for the taking, it’s ours for the fight. The sweet, sweet victory and the world is ours to hold.
Erm the version of the song I have is low, real low so some of it might be wrong ._.
So yeah I’ll never look back on the wind closing in because.
It just takes some time little bit, in a little bit of time everything, everything will be alright.
I know someone who would get it but she don’t watch me cause she be a famous artist yo
. But she loves the band that does the song so I’m guessing she might know it. Look at me rambling :]
Hey I’ve got over 2000+ songs I’m not done yet muahaha.
What hurts the most, was being so close, and having so much to say and watching you walk away and never knowing what could have been.
I’m either empathetic to a insane level or experience more than I should because I feel and understand far too many of these song lol. Or maybe it’s because I’m a writer
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I’d like to dedicate this next piece to someone.
Did you ever know that you’re my hero, and everything I would like to be, I could fly higher than an eagle, you are the wind beneath my wings.
Powerful song if you take the time to sit down and listen to it and think about it. If someone wrote and/or sang that song for me, no questions asked I’d break down and cry I’m a man but darn it those are powerful words to say. Don’t you think? Well if you know the song but everyone knows the song.
and when I die I’ll keep on living, you’ll always have my love seeing you through.
I need to make movies and use some of these songs ~.~
Oh should I give this song? It’s not in English, Japanese or german XD it’s in Hebrew!!!
lol nah. I doubt anyone has read this far anyway so why not? …… oh yeah I can’t spell the words T.T
Does make you high, make you real, does he make you cry, does he know the way you feel. Love is all around you, your universe is full, but in my world there is only you.
Saw this song with an AMV it matched perfectly. If my internet was working and I wasn’t pre-typing this at home I may consider sharing the link XD.
Incase you are wondering I’m typing this while waiting for goosebumps to be done because the movies or whatever they are, are completely lame the books are better though I haven’t read one in years. Anyone read those books? They made me laugh <.< maybe because of how kiddish they were and I always had the brain of a old me D:
Where does a 25 year old get off telling a 17 year old he’s like a father to her? What the hell!? ….. got it from my best friend once too ~.~ They say they can’t help it I’m just fatherly but in a good way. Which reminds me of high school
I don’t’ know I made it through school ok, I ignored everything and it was a breeze. XD
Anyway, I’m about brain dead now and my internet is back. So 1000+ journals and deviations here I come…… help meeee….. ._.
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